Chloe Muel Enamorado♥

Monday, September 28, 2009

hooo!

In case you were thinking i lost my job
or sth due to the sudden regular entries.
No i didnt...
just that my boss doesnt seems to need me so much
as shes busy with her F1 event.
With me working so few days this month,
meaning my moolah would decrease,
so everything else on the margin declines as well..
BOO HOO =(

Im feeling upset.
I know im an over sensitive person so i tend to think a lot.
Branching out more factors to a problem, extending its roots.
Then when the manifestation hits maximum.
I go bonkers with teardrops as my company.

At times,
i wish i am not capable of thinking straight at all times.
Another time,
i wish i could do things according to my mood and have that
"to-hell-what-other-think" attitude.

Sadly, i couldnt.
So i had all my unreleased emotions all hidden
and pile up within me.
Instead of erupting when prompt,
i let it die away.
You may think its a good thing,
but when it dies, it eats a part out of me.
A part eroded in the process.

With inherited genes similar to a cockroach,
i just dun goddamn die.
Im like the main character of a movie during times of War,
the soldier that goes tru all ordeal, with injuries, gun shots, perhaps even lost one eye or arm
but still doesnt die like how others die in 1 shot,
1 bomb, 1 hit on the head whatever~
The worse thing is, you notice,
the main lead is always - alone.

Im disintegrated.

Running tru the monsoon

The Who