I slap myself on the forehead every single day when i open my eyes. Doesnt matter if had a good sleep, chances are that the new day scares me to death to think about if i had a satisfying rest.
I just realise its be 6 months. Since i had my bumpy rides. Till now, im still feeling nausea about it.
The worse thing is, i can tell anyone about it and would end up alleviating nothing. Set aside suffering from the aftermath, im actually trying to figure out if im hating what im doing now. Its funny how i cant tell with my brains or my heart. In fact i haven been feeling my heart for a while and i dont use my brains a lot obviously. So, I really dont think this overwhelming disturbing emotion would just wash away and leave me alone anytime soon as i know i cant wait till time does the trick for me. The only thing i thought of doing now, is to push myself so hard till i drop and starts all over again.
One of my all time favorites. This time... whos gonna find me and make sure im not thrown the later.